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Look At Yourself With New Eyes

Today, I attended a church service as a visitor at the New Dimension Christian Fellowship Ministries (a non-denominational but very spirited and lively church here in New Orleans). My Cousin, who is now a Minister, was speaking and sharing her first message. Before I get into what the message sparked in me, I would like to share that all of the newly ordained ministers that I heard from today did an awesome job. So awesome in fact that I didn’t mind or notice I was in church for over three hours until someone else pointed it out. Now on to what I learned about myself and the message I want to share with you all.

The passages that all of the ministers spoke from was Numbers 13:25-33. The verse that really stuck with me today is Numbers 13:33:

“We saw the Nephilim there (the descendants of Anak come from Nephilim). We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes and we looked the same to them.”

Now before going on, I’ll give a bit of context if you’re unfamiliar with what’s happening in the Bible at this point. The Israelites have been wandering in the desert now for forty years. At this point, Moses is instructed by God to send men to canvass and search out the land of Canaan, which has already been promised to them as their rightful land. From each of the twelve tribes, a leader (a male) is selected for this particular duty of canvassing the land. At the point of this particular passage, the twelve men have returned to give their report to Moses after spending forty days surveying the land. Their instructions were to bring back a report of the lands viability (whether it is good or bad) and fruit as evidence of such. All of the leaders sent out for this mission return with the report that the land is good BUT ten of the men also focus on the inhabitants of the land: the giants who are descended from Anak. In their eyes, there is no way that the land will become theirs because there is no way that they could defeat these particular men (who tower over them).

Now that I’ve gotten you caught up, I’ll bring to you the point that stood out for me.

Right now, I’m in a period of serious transition. Change isn’t something that I’ve ever dealt with in the most positive manner. Usually, when an abrupt change takes place in my life, I would begin to wonder, “What did I do wrong to deserve this?” At the last major change in my life, which took place on December 19th, 2012, I began to wonder that very same thing. You see, before I began regularly working with my Life Coach Stephanie Alva of My Life Keys (and other therapists), I viewed changes as things that you don’t want to happen because they are the result of you having been disobedient or because you are undeserving of the good that was your life before the change. In a little over a year, I’m beginning to understand that changes are a natural part of life and really don’t have a reflection on my worth as a person.

Changes are simply a transition or a movement, passage, or change from one position, state, stage, subject, concept, etc., to another. Nothing more and nothing less. As my Life Coach pointed out, change occurs naturally and I have to be okay with that. I’m learning to be okay with that.

However, the reason I point out this particular scripture is because it became quite clear to me why I resist change with so much of my being — I viewed myself as insignificant and felt that others around me did as well. As the Israelites put it, “We seemed like grasshoppers in our eyes and we looked the same to them.” When this particular scripture was read aloud, my Spirit whispered to me, “What eyes have you seen yourself with?”

And it felt like time stopped.

In that moment, I realized that the way that I saw myself, and subsequently thought others saw me, was not the way that my Source (or God, if you will) sees me. No. There is a promise over my life and even though I’m not exactly sure what it is, my ONLY job is to live a life that is affirming for myself and to others and to continue to grow into the Woman that I’ve been called to be. My job is to break damaging family cycles for the eyes that show me I deserve those cycles aren’t my own at all. My job is to be courageous in living in my truth and not straying away from living in my light because it offends others. My job is to be happy. My job is to find joy. My job is to be and show love. My job is to uplift.

My job is to see myself through my Spiritual eyes and not through earthly/humanly eyes. Earthly eyes are clouded by fear, judgement, disbelief and doubt. Earthly eyes are persuaded by hearts that are unsure because the next step seems to take you down too dark of a road. Earthly eyes are influenced by the doubting or “common sense” questions that others ask of you and your purpose. There is no way to live completely in your purpose while judging yourself through your earthly eyes.

Our job is to begin to look at ourselves through our Spiritual eyes.

Once we do that, we’ll see that it doesn’t matter whether we view ourselves as Giants in our own right. Or as Grasshoppers. The message from this passage is that what is for you IS for you. What you’ve been promised, you will receive. Your job is to reach your destiny but your vision and sight determines how quickly and the road you will eventually take. Which leads me to the only question that I have to ask of you (which seems appropriate going into a new year):

Will you look at yourself with New Eyes?

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Affirmation Hour – December 5, 2012

Everything is working out perfectly for my highest good.

I find happiness in every circumstance.

I remember to find happiness through any challenge.

My happiness draws even more blessings into my life.

I am in charge of my own happiness.

I gratefully accept all of the happiness the Universe pours into my life.

I deserve all of the happiness in my life.

My heart overflows with gratitude when I recognize my happiness.

I am healthy and happy.

I am in control of my life choices and I make decisions that increase my happiness.

I cherish all of my feelings and I release that which doesn’t serve my highest good.

I am happy to be me and I express my gratitude daily!

I am a happy and successful person.

My happiness is contagious!

Others can’t help but to feel more happiness when I’m around.

Happiness comes easily to me.

Happiness is activated by love.

I have a happy soul.

Divine peace and happiness flows into my life from my Source effortlessly.

I allow happiness to fill every minute of every hour of my life.

Life supports my decisions in every way.

I surround myself with confident people who encourage my happiness.

I remind myself that happiness begets happiness.

I allow happiness to manifest into my life.

My happiness stems from my inner peace.

Happiness naturally flows from the love in my heart.

I am loved and safe and happy.

Each moment, I grow happier.

I speak health and happiness to every person I meet.

I hold the keys to my happiness.

I create my own power and I lovingly embrace my happiness.

My happiness makes my life more abundant.

My happiness makes me feel more secure each day.

I will continue to be happy.

Happiness is my reality!

I don’t try to be happy… I AM HAPPY!!!

Morning Reflections 12/03/12 – (#31DaysOfAffirming)

Today, I woke up with a calm over my spirit. I can’t remember the last time I’ve felt so peaceful. In that moment, I thought to myself, “It would be great it more people got on board for the 31 Days of Affirming Challenge! I could — ” and with that, I had to pause. I started to get angry because I felt that not enough people were in on this. I started to judge others because I felt that they couldn’t take 31 days, ONE month, and cut out the craziness on the internet. DIDN’T THEY GET THAT THIS WAS BIGGER THAN THE NEGATIVITY? Didn’t they get that this was about empowering one another? But the craziest thought I had was, “I bet if I were one of those popular bloggers, that people would have jumped on board a long time ago.”

Then I had to pause. You see? That’s a spirit of judgement and a spirit of jealousy. You can’t have those feelings if you’re really about uplifting others. Besides, I began to ask myself, “Was this really about me and what I wanted to accomplish? Or was this really about lifting and affirming others as I’ve been saying it is?”

At the core of it, it is about affirming others. Today, I recognized that the self-esteem issues I’ve been dealing with AND the need to be perfect (whatever that means) started to take over my thoughts around this challenge. I wanted to touch so many people and lift them up in their troubles (not a bad thing) BUT there was a small part of me that wanted the recognition that this was successful and we all know that our society/community likes to measure the success of something by the number of people you touch. Or just by numbers. And that’s not what this is about. This is about the feelings that people get when they read the words that are typed. This is about how great a person feels when they search for “31 Days of Affirming” and find others posting positive messages. I have to remember that numbers really don’t count when it comes to the experiences that people have.

With that recognition and re-commitment, I reminded myself: “Affirming others is not about whether or not people say thank you or even remember my name. It’s not about how I could profit from this. It’s not about how I grow materialistically as a person. No. It’s about being entrusted with the vision, insight, and courage to contribute to my community in the most positive way I can. It is about others which means I have to decrease myself and my need for recognition in the process. At the end of the day, this is about how others are empowered and in turn, how empowering others reminds me of my own power. This is about raising the awareness of others and their spiritual talents. It’s not about me.”

With that simple reminder, I once again felt the peace I woke up with.

Affirmation: I AFFIRM others and they in turn, affirm me.

Affirmation Hour During the Online “31 Days of Affirming” Challenge

Tonight on Twitter, I had a great idea! I thought, “Wouldn’t it be wonderful if I ONLY tweeted affirmations for an hour?” Much to my delight, others liked the idea as well. They liked it so much, that I’ve decided to make it daily. So tune in on Twitter from 6:30pm to 7:30pm (daily) for the Affirmation Hour!

The topics that I’ve decided to tweet on are:

  1. Hope
  2. Communicating/Communication
  3. Happiness
  4. Self-Confidence & Decision-Making
  5. Health
  6. Courage
  7. Prosperity
  8. Abundance
  9. Love
  10. Romance
  11. Work/Career
  12. School
  13. Relationships
  14. Grief
  15. Finances
  16. Job Searching/Employment
  17. Healing
  18. Security
  19. Compassion
  20. Peace
  21. Spirituality
  22. Wealth
  23. Friendship
  24. Forgiveness
  25. Attitude
  26. Passion
  27. Weight
  28. Success
  29. Wisdom
  30. Trust

If there are more topics you’d wish to read, simply comment or send me a tweet (@MsCJHardwick).

To find these tweets, simply search for #AffirmationHour or #31DaysOfAffirming.

31 Days Of Affirmation – December 2012 Edition

What?!?!? Another month-long affirmation challenge?? It can’t be! Or can it?

YES IT CAN!

As you may or may not know, 30 Days of Affirmations came about out of a personal need to inject some positivity into my day. After expressing my goal to find and apply affirmations on a daily basis on Twitter, other people decided to join. From there, we decided it would be a joint effort and we’d tag the affirmations with a specific hashtag.

However, since it’s coming up on the end of the year, I thought it would be AWESOME that we do it one last time for 2012. Which means we get an EXTRA day of positivity and praise.

When? From December 1st until December 31st, 2012.

Who? Anyone and everyone can participate.

Why? Why not??? Everyone needs positivity and that’s really what this is all about. 😀

Where? On Twitter (mostly) but if you want to participate and don’t have a twitter, then you can post your affirmation here. Make sure you use the tag 31DaysOfAffirming so that we can easily find them in a search. You never know who can use your words.

How? Simply post your affirmation with the tag #31DaysOfAffirming or 31DaysOfAffirming. Why the need for a tag? So that we can easily find the affirmation. Also, list the source. No one likes when you take credit for their words; so if it’s a quote from your favorite author, write the affirmation and the author, if you get it from a song, write out the name of the song, etc.

It’s just that simple. Let’s close out 2012 with some awesome energy!

Happy Affirming! 😀